Mostly unrelated questions-

Have I been upset about the state of my life all day? Yes. Did I have a breakdown at work tonight after a man I barely know told me he’s proud of me? Sadly, Yes. Am I a touch starved spinster? …Yep Do I get attached to the wrong people? Undoubtably. Am I tried of [...]

If I had the opportunity of choice.

They say if you love two people pick the second person because if you truly loved the first person, the second person wouldn't be an option. Yet In my wildest dreams- if they were both before me, confessing a major emotion (LOVE) they feel/felt towards me. Who would I choose? 1st person (chapter)- No contact [...]

I’m invisible to Cupid.

I've waited all these years for a valentine. I suppose tomorrow won't be any different. Waitings love dies on a forever kiss.

Butterflies

I love the double takes you make. When you see me. It's like you can't believe I'm real. I would never take my eyes off you (consistently smiling) but I can't let everyone know how I feel.

Cake

How do I end up getting a goodbye hug from your best friend and a quick spoken fast walking bye Shelby from you and you bought us cake. How do you make a big deal and buy a cake then don't even say a proper goodbye. Mixed signals all over the place. I just wanted [...]

Wine confessions and crying.

Why do you need alcohol? I actually hate drinking and the taste of alcohol but sometimes it's the therapy I need. I thought getting a new job would make me happier but I've been crying more than I have in my entire adult life so.. Big change and the loss of people I adore is [...]

Is my existence a running joke for the gods?

Are they seriously up there with popcorn watching the shit show that is my life? They're probably having a ball, like: Hey look, watch this chubby girl think for the billionth time someone could actually be single and attractive AND like her. Ha ha! Sike, they are already in a relationship. Haha! oh its so [...]

Maybe I want to be friends.

Have you ever started caring about someone without realizing when it began or if you even should. Like you haven’t seen them in a while and you miss them or you just wonder how they are.. and you want to text them but you realize you aren’t even friends. Sucks.

Don’t

You can’t be nice to me. Don’t look at me like that and smile and flirt. My heart is fragile and I fall easily. I know that I mean nothing to you. There is a reason I’m not too friendly to you. There is a reason I won’t open up and talk. I’m attracted to [...]