Left alone to think.

Its just... the last two guys I cared for the most... I thought they may actually but they didn't care an ounce for me. What am I doing wrong. What is wrong with me. What is wrong with me.


Alive not living.

I hold few things in this world close to me. There are some things, if I can help, it I will never share with other people unless I care for them, such as: If I hangout with you on my day off it's because you are important to me. I hate spending my precious time [...]

Please don’t tell me “who I am”.

I hate when people try to tell me who I am Acting like they are the ones who get to categorize my character based off their own insecurities. Today a female colleague of mine said to me in front of a small group of people, "You are mean, you just act nice to throw people [...]

Moving on is harder to do, when the one that you love moves faster than you. 

When I talk about a "he or him" it's the same person that I've been holding onto for five years. I have had connections with men before him and after him but nothing ever came of it. Mostly I wonder if I'm holding on because I'm not sure of what could've been or what was. [...]