I wonder how much happier my life would be if I could forget everyone I've ever met. To forget the past, people who've hurt me and the people I miss. Just start over new with the people who are still here and still care.
When I talk about a "he or him" it's the same person that I've been holding onto for five years. I have had connections with men before him and after him but nothing ever came of it. Mostly I wonder if I'm holding on because I'm not sure of what could've been or what was. [...]
I don't know where I belong or if I belong. Maybe I should quit and go back to who I once was but I don't know her anymore. I don't know me anymore.
I'm thinking of you today. I don't know why but every once in a while I will get this longing for you. And it feels like I can't stand another minute without seeing your face. My heart aches. It has been silence for years. I have let you go, at least I think I have [...]
One day someone will have me. He will have my blunt attitude. He will have my diverse music selection. He will have my shy cautiousness. He will have my cheesy over spoken jokes. He will have my guess what word I'm trying to say game. He will have my laughing at myself snorts followed by [...]