When I talk about a "he or him" it's the same person that I've been holding onto for five years. I have had connections with men before him and after him but nothing ever came of it. Mostly I wonder if I'm holding on because I'm not sure of what could've been or what was. [...]
It's hard to believe I won't see his face smiling at me again or ever hear him talk or laugh. I won't be able to roll your eyes at his dumb sayings or catch phrases and I will not again feel how special it made me feel when he was finally proud of me, sobbing [...]
I don't know where I belong or if I belong. Maybe I should quit and go back to who I once was but I don't know her anymore. I don't know me anymore.
Musicians: Elton John, Frank Sinatra, The Beatles, Queen, The Rolling Stones, Bob Marley, James Taylor, CCR, Coldplay. The smell of matches and fireworks. Sunsets. Full moons. Clear starry night skies. Night drives. Lemon flavored deserts. Extra Polar Ice bubblegum. Ice cold water. Dr Pepper. The beach at night. Sad love songs. Adventures. Waterfalls. Road trips with MUSIC! Tacos and Burritos. Blue [...]
I can be happy with big laughs and dorky jokes around other people all day but the second I'm alone that all changes and the sadness I struggle to hide comes spewing out the moment they leave my side. I can't hide from my sadness when I'm alone but for everyone else's sake I can [...]
It's a sad and a happy moment seeing someone you haven't seen in a while. Happy because you finally get to see someone you've missed being around. Sad because things can't ever be the same, you'll never talk like you used to. Am I the only person who can be happy and sad at the [...]
I'm thinking of you today. I don't know why but every once in a while I will get this longing for you. And it feels like I can't stand another minute without seeing your face. My heart aches. It has been silence for years. I have let you go, at least I think I have [...]