I'm an chubby 25 year old woman. No man has ever told me I'm beautiful. No man has ever looked at me longingly. No man has ever held me like I'm precious. No man has ever talked to me as more than a friend. (As far as I've known) My lack of experience has blinded [...]
I might trying online dating..... Just know I don't like online dating. How are you?(virtual stranger who may or may not be a serial killer). I mean really, there is something so impersonal about all of it. Firstly no tone of voice changes or facial expressions that I adore so much in face to face [...]
I wonder how much happier my life would be if I could forget everyone I've ever met. To forget the past, people who've hurt me and the people I miss. Just start over new with the people who are still here and still care.
When I talk about a "he or him" it's the same person that I've been holding onto for five years. I have had connections with men before him and after him but nothing ever came of it. Mostly I wonder if I'm holding on because I'm not sure of what could've been or what was. [...]
It's hard to believe I won't see his face smiling at me again or ever hear him talk or laugh. I won't be able to roll your eyes at his dumb sayings or catch phrases and I will not again feel how special it made me feel when he was finally proud of me, sobbing [...]
I don't know where I belong or if I belong. Maybe I should quit and go back to who I once was but I don't know her anymore. I don't know me anymore.
Musicians: Elton John, Frank Sinatra, The Beatles, Queen, The Rolling Stones, Bob Marley, James Taylor, CCR, Coldplay. The smell of matches and fireworks. Sunsets. Full moons. Clear starry night skies. Night drives. Lemon flavored deserts. Extra Polar Ice bubblegum. Ice cold water. Dr Pepper. The beach at night. Sad love songs. Adventures. Waterfalls. Road trips with MUSIC! Tacos and Burritos. Blue [...]